What am I getting myself into? I'm going to be a Passion Parties consultant.
I don't have any problems speaking openly about sex but there's a bit of apprehension here. I can't quite put my finger on why though...
Maybe I'm nervous that I'll fail. I tend to put too much faith in others, thinking they'll come through for me when they have no intention of doing so. So I guess I'm putting my faith in all of these "friends" of mine that they'll help me get started with this business and I'm really worried they won't be as supportive as they initially said. I'm so used to getting all excited about something and then end up being disappointed in people not following through in the end. I'm tired of feeling that way.
I think I'm also nervous about what I'm going to tell my kids as they get older if I stay with it long enough...do I tell them what I really do or try to cover up what it really is? Where do I hide - er, store the merchandise? I'm sure I'll want to be open and honest with my kids so they will eventually want to be open and honest with me when it comes to talking about sex but I mean when they're 5, 6, 7, 8 years old? I guess that's all stuff I'll have to figure out on my own.
Wish me luck. The journey is about to begin.
